If Not…

Posted April 20 2026
“If not you, then who? If not now, when?” — Hillel the Elder.

It began with a small blackberry bush. Just a slender, spiked vine growing by the roadside at the western entrance to my town. At first, it was barely visible. Something you could easily pass by without notice. But I saw it. And I knew what it meant. Blackberry.

A plant that is both patient and persistent, and one that does not ask for permission.

And I knew all too well the damage it could do. The way it creeps, takes hold and spreads. How quickly one small bush can become a thicket. And how much harder it is to undo once its roots settle deep into the earth.

And yet, I did nothing.

I told myself I would stop one day. Pull it out. Do my small part for the land and for the community. But days passed, then weeks. Each time I drove by, I noticed it. Each time, I thought the same thought.

I should do something about that.

But I didn’t.

Perhaps someone else would. A council worker. Another concerned passerby. I softened my inaction with quiet reasoning. It wasn’t my responsibility. It was only one bush.

And so it grew.

Change does not come from waiting for the right time, the right conditions or even the right person. It comes from someone choosing to act

Until one day, I stopped. Took a shovel, a pair of gloves and some dogged determination. It was after all, a blackberry bush. And I set about removing it.

What could have been a simple act months earlier had become something far more demanding. The roots had taken hold. Its resilience borne out in the thorns that had multiplied. The work now was far harder than it needed to be if only I had acted earlier.

Standing there looking at my blisters, I realised something I have not forgotten since.

Inaction has a way of growing too.

There is an old truth in this. That what we delay, we deepen. That the space between knowing and doing is where most of life’s problems take root. As the modern stoics so often remind us, the obstacle is not what stands before us, but what we choose to do about it.

Or not.

Because the truth is, the world is full of blackberry bushes.

Some grow in soil. Others in systems, in habits and in silence. In the quiet spaces where something calls for action and is met instead with hesitation or excuses.

And like that roadside bush, they rarely remain small for long.

The causes we care about. The injustices we see. The opportunities to act with courage, compassion and conviction. They are often not grand or sweeping moments. More often, they are small, inconvenient or easy to defer.

Until they are not.

For those of us who advocate for animals, we know this well. Change does not come from waiting for the right time, the right conditions or even the right person. It comes from someone choosing to act, even when the act feels small.

Especially then.

Because every moment of action interrupts the spread of something that would otherwise grow. And every moment of inaction allows it.

So perhaps the question is not whether we are capable.

But whether we are willing.

“If not you, then who? If not now, when?”

So choose your shovel.

Hansel: Finding Our Way Home

Posted April 20 2026
I sit here beside my broken heart and try to write the story of Hansel. A task made tougher because it feels as though a piece of it has left with him.

Sixteen years ago, I was the first face of kindness he saw. And today, I was the last. It is what came in between that fills my heart with so many emotions. I close my eyes and touch my cheek as I feel something moist. But it is not a tear. It is the memory of the abrasive touch of his long, raspy tongue.

In fact, it was Hansel’s final gesture with his enormous tongue that reached out and gently took the Weetbix from my hand and tucked it safely inside his mouth. In that moment, he told me he was at peace with the world.

And so, it was my time to find it too.

Farewells are never easy. If anything has taught me that, it is this life. But it has also taught me not to let the weight of goodbye overshadow all the good days that came before. And in Hansel’s case, they were all good days… except for today, when his body quietly told us it was time.

This morning, he did not rise for breakfast as he always would. There was no eager shuffle, only a soft bellow in its place. Still, he allowed us to go through the motions, to try and help him to stand. And in those moments, as effort gave way to stillness, we were given the grace to understand.

It was time to help him find his way home.

And as we sat with his breathless body, his great heart now still, we closed our eyes and saw him again as he once was. A tiny, doe-eyed Jersey calf, blinking at a world that did not want him.

But we surely did.

Through dust and flies and heat, we carried him to the straw-lined horse float. And there, he met his beloved. A small black calf, a white splash under her chest, three strong legs and a will to live.

A fuel stop later, and with a glance into the back of the float, the two calves looked out at us and their names found them.
Hansel and Gretel.

They grew side by playful side, exploring their place in the world and finding their place in our hearts. Hansel with his cheeky spirit and Gretel with her quiet determination. Together, they found something many never do.

They found home.

Hansel grew into a magnificent steer, gentle in nature and known for that wonderfully long tongue. Knowing him as we did, it came as little wonder he became a favourite of all who had the good fortune to meet him. But more than that, he became a quiet ambassador. A reminder that these animals are not by-products, but individuals, each with a life as meaningful as our own.

For ten years, he rarely left Gretel’s side. And when her incredible life came to an end in 2020, a part of him left with her too.

We are reminded once more that in love, in loss and in grief, it is only form that separates us from our animal friends, not feeling

He carried on, as we all must. Finding moments of joy again, in the company of others, dear Gracie among them. But sometimes, when he stood and gazed out across the field, you could not help but feel he was searching.

Perhaps, even then, he was finding his way back to her.

To reach the age of 16 years and 3 months is remarkable for any bovine. For a male calf born into the dairy industry, it is extraordinary.

But Hansel was always extraordinary.

And now, as we sit with the silence he has left behind, we take comfort in something we cannot see, but deeply feel.

That he is no longer searching.

That on four strong, pain-free legs, he has found his way home. And waiting for him there is Gretel.

And as we sat with him, he was not alone.

One by one, his friends came. Each with a knowing, as they gently touched his body. A gentle goodbye, in a language beyond words.

Dear Yak, who earlier we thought was butting him, we now realised was trying to help his friend rise.

And sweet Valentine, who has so recently known loss herself, quietly lowered her body beside him and shared in his final sunset.

Go well, our dear boy. Please tell her we love her very much too.

It was an honour and a privilege to know you.

And from Hansel, we are reminded once more that in love, in loss and in grief, it is only form that separates us from our animal friends, not feeling.

And we walk each other home.

You Are So Brave

Posted April 20 2026
I said those words twice today. The first time came when I dropped my head to Gwendolyn’s side, her chest no longer moving and her heart still, as mine went into overdrive. No, no, no. We weren’t expecting to lose her today. Not today.

It was just after 5:00am. Lex and I had been doing what we had done every day since Gwendolyn arrived. Saying hello to her cheeky face as it moved left to right, then up and down, studying us as if she was taking us all in. We’d move in quickly to help, knowing she had held her bladder so she wouldn’t soil herself. “Bless her,” we would always say.

Though her vet report from yesterday hadn’t been the one we’d hoped for, as an infection had taken hold in her right hock, her effervescent spirit hadn’t shifted. She was still curious and bright. And still hungry for life and her favourite Scooby snacks. Her evening rehab session had been her strongest yet, with all four feet weight bearing.
“You’ve got this, Gwenny,” we cheered.

But this morning was different. It was so different.

Lex said what my heart already knew. “There’s something wrong with Gwenny.”

Her face wasn’t bright and she didn’t look my way. Her head was down inside her “racing car,” the frame that held her safely at night, and a slight drool came from her mouth. And then, moments later, as we cradled her, she was gone.

I have found myself wondering if dear Gwenny held on until we arrived. Until she was surrounded by those who loved her most. Perhaps there was a knowing in that. Perhaps she spared us from finding her already gone and chose to leave this world held close instead.

In that instance, Gwenny’s fight was over, and ours had begun.

The likely cause was that her weathered heart had failed her, just like the system she had escaped.

And in that instance, Gwenny’s fight was over, and ours had begun.

In the confusion and the searching, our hearts asked a question they already knew the answer to, but were not ready to accept. There were still bandages to change, plans to make and small steps forward we thought we would take together.

And now, in the quiet that follows, there is only a feeling. A big, empty feeling. As big as Gwenny’s spirit, and as raw as the heartache of unexpected loss.

As I made my way back to my little cabin to catch a few hours of sleep, I thought of the two simple emojis Lex had sent just hours earlier to let me know she had arrived and it was “Gwenny time,” otherwise known as time to put her in her sling 🐑💪.

With my eyes welling with tears, I thought of the brave soul I had just left. The one I had worked beside each day, caring for dear Gwendolyn, and all they had carried through this with her. I wrote back the only words that felt true.

You are so brave.

And then, somewhere in the middle of the sadness, I found gratitude.

How lucky I am to know animals like dearest Gwenny. To serve them, no matter how much it hurts. And to stand, side by side, with some of the finest humans I know, who show up each day knowing their hearts may be broken.

Bless you, dearest Gwendolyn. It has been such an honour to know you. It truly has.

I trust there are plenty of Scooby snacks waiting for you.

And to every member of Team Edgar, thank you for finding your way here, and for all that you give.

You are so brave.

Don’t Forget to Brush Your Teeth & The Myth of Kindness

Posted March 22 2026
I stretch my memory back and though I cannot recall the exact date, I do remember the moment with surprising clarity.

I was about fourteen, standing in front of the bathroom mirror in the thin morning light, toothbrush in one hand and my mum’s words in the other: “Don’t forget to brush your teeth.” And so I dutifully scrubbed away at my pearly whites, just as I had been told to do since childhood.

But then those cheesy words from the television commercial I had seen the night before niggled at me. I paused and actually looked at what I was doing. The toothbrush wasn’t really spending much time on my teeth at all. Instead, it honed in on the spaces between each tooth and traced the soft pink line of my gums.

That was the moment it dawned on me.

All those years I’d heard “brush your teeth”, never realising how much of it was really about what sits between them and the gums that hold everything in place. The teeth, it turns out, are merely the visible part. Everything else is the roots holding them in place. Neglect that, and eventually the teeth themselves begin to fail.
It struck me then how curious language can be. We repeat instructions so often that we stop noticing what they really mean. “Brush your teeth.” One simple instruction and yet, not entirely true.

As the years passed, that small realisation returned to me more than once. Especially when I began rethinking the way we speak about animals. Most of us grow up hearing another instruction just as familiar.

“Be kind to animals.”

Perhaps kindness has never really lived in the words we use, or the stories we tell ourselves, or even our animal protection laws, but in our willingness to look beyond the polished surface and face what has been hidden there all along

It sits comfortably among the lessons of our childhood. Feed the dog. Be gentle with the family cats. And somewhere in the background, we know that laws exist to protect animals through something called the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals Act.

Yet walk through a supermarket or glance at a restaurant menu and something inside you awakens. The animals have disappeared and in their place are tidy words and comfortable rituals. Pork. Bacon. Ham. Not a pig or someone whose nose is waiting to nudge your heart.

On the surface, everything appears perfectly normal. And so we go about our lives, rarely stopping to question what lies beneath.
But sometimes, just as with brushing our teeth, it helps to look a little closer—for them and for us.

Because beneath the visible layer lies the deeper structure that holds the whole system together. A structure built not on kindness, but on distance, euphemism and suffering so routine it has become almost invisible.

Perhaps that is the curious thing about human animals. We polish the visible parts of our lives with our words, our labels and our rituals, while the foundations beneath them quietly erode.

That morning in the mirror taught me something simple that I have never forgotten, though it would take many years to fully understand. The most important truths are often hidden just below the surface. We may think we are brushing our teeth. But all along, it was what lay between and beneath that truly mattered.

And perhaps the same is true of kindness.

Perhaps kindness has never really lived in the words we use, or the stories we tell ourselves, or even our animal protection laws, but in our willingness to look beyond the polished surface and face what has been hidden there all along.

Because it is not what we say about animals that defines us.

It is who lies beneath the choices we make.

Good Grief – A Tribute to Bella

Posted March 22 2026
Andrea Gibson once wrote: “Let your heart break so your spirit doesn’t”

Those words find us now as we sit with our good grief for dearest Bella. Bella found sanctuary in our hearts and a place here in August 2023. Carrying more than her young and fragile body ever should have, she was critically thin, dehydrated and exhausted after a difficult birth. Lambing paralysis stole the use of her back legs while a predator stole her newborn lamb.

Yet none of it stole her spirit.

Bella did not surrender to what happened to her. And coming to know her as we did, that is no surprise. At first, she met our attempts to help with a fierce headbutt that seemed to say, “I’m still here.”

And she gloriously was.

There were slings and IV fluids, hand-picked grass and endless encouragement. There were falls and setbacks and more hurdles than one sheep should ever have to face. She trialled a cart, but in true Bella fashion, she refused to be defined by it.

And it became clear that Bella would live life on her terms, even in a compromised body.

It is the kind of grief that hurts because our love for Bella was real, the kind that breaks the heart so the spirit can stay open.

Her name means beautiful and that she was. You saw it in the glow of her eyes, in her determined honk that echoed across the paddock and in the way she insisted we meet her on her terms.

And there was her muzzle, greying before its time, betraying her youth but never her wisdom.

Time and her body were not kind and complications from repeated prolapses demanded more of her than even her indomitable spirit could overcome. And though it broke our hearts, we honoured the independence we so admired in her the only way we could—by setting her free.

That is our good grief.

It is the kind of grief that hurts because our love for Bella was real, the kind that breaks the heart so the spirit can stay open.

Dearest, most precious Bella, your body may have faltered, but your spirit never did.

And now, you are free.

A Different Angle

Posted February 19 2026
Fishing is often framed as harmless recreation. For many, it is said to be a way to relax, to connect with nature and to simply be.

But that story only holds if you’re standing on the bank. From the other end of the line, the experience looks very different. Scientific research over the past two decades has shown that fish are sentient beings. They feel pain and experience stress and fear. They also show signs of positive states and social preferences.

Studies have demonstrated that fish possess nociceptors, learn from negative experiences and can show long-term behavioural changes after injury. A barbed hook tearing through a mouth is not a momentary inconvenience.

It is trauma.

Dragged from the water into the air, fish don’t simply “stop moving”. They suffocate, their gills collapse and their bodies fight desperately for oxygen that isn’t there (fish cannot breathe gaseous oxygen in the air).

And the suffering doesn’t end with the fish.

Discarded hooks and fishing line linger long after the angler has gone home. They drift unseen beneath the surface, turning lakes and rivers into silent traps. Left along banks and shorelines, they can entangle animals who pass through. Waterbirds can be snared by line around their legs or wings while hooks embed in necks, beaks and throats. Many of these animals die slowly, out of sight, their suffering never counted because they were never the intended catch.

Which raises a difficult question.

When this harm becomes visible, whose responsibility is it to act?

Recreation, at its best, should deepen our care for the world we move through

Recently, we received a call about a goose at a local lake. A fishing hook was embedded in their neck. As a non-native animal, they fell outside of the scope of wildlife carers; government bodies did not attend, and this wasn’t technically within our usual scope of work. And at the time, we were hundreds of kilometres away, responding to the Longwood bushfires and caring for fire-impacted farmed animals.

Still, concern doesn’t switch off just because a case falls outside a neat category.

We offered advice, suggested alternative avenues for help and trusted that someone closer would be able to intervene.

But days passed. And no one did.

Then, as the heat finally broke one evening and we were able to attend, the goose emerged from the reeds at dusk. We suspect they had been sheltering there during the hottest part of the day, hidden and hurting and trying to survive.

What followed was not heroic. It was awkward, loud and briefly chaotic. The goose made it very clear that they valued their body exactly as it was and had no interest in our plans of kindness. Despite our repeated, gentle assurances of “We’re here to help, buddy,” the goose was clearly unconvinced.

Eventually, with care and patience and a set of pliers, we were able to cut the barb and delicately remove the hook. On examination, there was no sign of lasting damage, no infection and no tearing beyond the entry point.

The goose was last seen waddling back to the water. Free, still wild and still with their buddies.

This is the part of the story that stays with us.

Fishing is described as a recreational pursuit. The word itself implies renewal and restoration—an activity that leaves both the person and the place no worse than before.

If a pastime relies on another being’s pain, fear or death, can it still claim that meaning?

And if the tools of that pastime continue to harm long after the fun has ended, entangling animals who never consented to the game, what responsibility do we carry for the unseen consequences?

This story isn’t about blame. It’s about angles.

The angler’s angle. The fish’s angle. The goose’s angle.

And the invitation for us all to pause long enough to look again.

When we close ourselves off to the experiences of others, especially those who do not speak our language, it becomes easier to ignore harm. That distance dulls our empathy, and what we don’t feel, we are less likely to question.

Recreation, at its best, should deepen our care for the world we move through. It should not require someone else to suffer quietly so we can feel at peace. Sometimes change begins not with condemnation, but with noticing and with choosing a different angle.

A Cherished Life

Posted February 19 2026
Yesterday, the final chapter of Rammie Baa Baa’s earthly mission came to a close. And what a mission it was.

Rammie arrived in our lives because one person, unsteady on the other end of a phone line, refused to give up. “Please don’t judge me,” they said. They had tried almost everywhere to find help for the sheep whose life they had saved as a lamb, but their remote location had narrowed the options to something unthinkable: “We can shoot ‘im.”

Their voice carried more than grief. It carried shame too. And in the middle of that loneliness was a blind, bottle-reared ram with a heart as vast as his body and a burden no one should have had to bear.

Rammie Baa Baa, when we met him, was big in size, but gentle in spirit. He stole our hearts the way the best souls do, without even trying. His approach was always soft, while his gaze was clouded but kind. And the trust he so willingly gave always felt like a precious gift.

We will never forget the first time we truly saw what he had been living with for so long. A massive, infected scrotum, some 40 kilos, dragging on his body and his days. And yet Rammie never carried this as a burden.

Not once.

If anything, he showed us what it looks like to keep choosing kindness even when life has given you every excuse not to.

The surgery that followed asked much of him and of veterinary science too. And both proved that the impossible is only so until we try.

Rammie Baa Baa withstood the scrotum, the blindness, the grass seeds that had riddled his skin like spiky little spears, and later the creeping losses that time brings to every beloved being.

Still, he never surrendered his gentleness. Or his love of carrots.

And goodness, he never surrendered his flair for giving us a fright either. Rammie had a knack for lying flat out as if he’d slipped quietly away, our hearts stopping mid-beat as we hurried towards him, only for him to rise again as though nothing at all had happened.

Perhaps it was a trick he learned from old Smokey. Either way, he kept us humble. And in a strange kind of grace, he reminded us not to take a single ordinary moment for granted.

He would come running at the hint of a human, his head tilted in his signature way, taking in the world not with his eyes but with his ears and his heart. And he made friends with us all—how could he not?

But most of all, he made better humans of us, too.

Yesterday, as we said our final goodbye and offered him one last carrot, we told him it was from Denise. That kind heart who never gave up on him, or on kindness, all those years ago.

Dearest Rammie Baa Baa, life will not be the same without you. Thank you for everything you brought to our world. We trust, with all we are, that we brought even half of that to yours.

You were, and will always be, a cherished life.

Godspeed, magnificent one. Godspeed.

The Fire Within Us

Posted January 22 2026
As I look out my window this morning, the familiar rhythm of sanctuary life unfolds. The team moves with their usual quiet purpose, ensuring every animal is fed, has fresh water and is cared for. Even after restless nights and heavy skies, life continues. Responsibility continues. Kindness continues.

Yet my heart and thoughts drift to those whose worlds have been changed forever by the merciless fires. While we were fortunate to be spared—this time—many others were not. Driving through fire-affected landscapes to lend what help and hands we could, I was met by a haunting familiarity: the scorched earth, the smell of smoke and the hollow silence after the roar.
And still, amid the blackened ground, there it was—the unmistakable glimmer of hope.

Because in moments like these, we witness the very best of humanity. Have you ever wondered why that is? Why, when all seems lost, people reach deep down inside and shine so brightly for others? Perhaps it is because the fire strips things back to their essence. It burns through our differences, our opinions and our fears. It reveals a fundamental truth that lies beneath the ash and grief. Something that has always been there: a beating heat, a desire to protect and a longing to help.

It’s a knowing that extends beyond our own kind.

Even from the ashes, kindness has a way of catching light again.

We don’t have to have lived the experiences of others to recognise ourselves in them. We don’t need to know every detail to their story to understand their pain. The same is true for non-human animals who share this world with us. Their hearts beat with the same urgency; their fear is just as real and their relief just as profound when kindness finds them.

The fire reminds us how fragile everything is. But it also reminds us how powerful we can be when we let empathy be our guide. Compassion is not a finite resource and it grows best when it is shared.

The challenge, perhaps, is not finding kindness when tragedy forces us beyond our comfort zone, but learning how to keep it alive when the smoke clears. To let it guide our everyday choices. To allow it to shape the world we are building, moment by moment.

And as we reflect on the year that has been, I want to express my deepest gratitude for your belief, your support and your compassion throughout 2025. None of this work is possible without you walking alongside us.

As we step into 2026, my hope is simple and steadfast. That together, we will continue to choose kindness. That we keep walking, hand in hand, towards a more humane and just world for humans and non-humans alike.

Because even from the ashes, kindness has a way of catching light again.

Away in a Manger

Posted December 17 2025
Well, perhaps not quite a manger, rather, the next room, there’s a perfect pink piglet who snores beneath a blanket of red festive cheer.

His name is Reginald P. Piglet—Reggie for short. He’s had a big day: snouting about in the soil, redesigning his bed and nestling his way into the hearts and handbags of every visitor who met him today.

There is something disarming, almost sacred, in watching Reggie sleep, his tiny snores a lullaby of contentment, his twitching trotters acting out dreams painted in warmth and safety.

His heart is full.

And so is mine.

But as this festive season wraps its twinkling lights around us, I cannot help but think of all the other Reggies, the ones whose “mangers” are concrete, steel and excrement. The pigs whose lives begin and end in darkness. The ones who will never feel sunshine on their backs, the earth beneath their trotters or kindness from human hands.

Reggie is lucky. But he is NOT different. His joy, his intelligence, his cheeky antics, his desire for comfort and companionship, they are shared by every pig born into a world that too often refuses to see them.

But perhaps this year can be different.

Perhaps this season, one that speaks of peace, birth and possibility, invites us to pause. To wake up and to remember who we really are beneath the noise of tradition and the weight of inherited belief systems that were never ours to begin with—beliefs that harm animals, and in doing so, dim something in ourselves.

Reggie was found only because he was lost. A twist of fate that opened a doorway into a gentler and longer life. And maybe that is our invitation too: to find ourselves again by choosing kindness and by letting compassion, not habit, shape our choices and our hearts.

And by remembering that “goodwill to all” means all.

May the season ahead bring actions and beliefs that are birthed from love. May every manger, near or far, cradle sanctuary and not suffering. And may we, like Reggie, awaken to the truth that a kinder world is not only possible, it is simply waiting for us to choose it.

From our manger of kindness to yours, may peace and goodwill shine bright!

Pam and Reggie

Trust Me: A Lesson in Fear and Flight

Posted October 29 2025
“Thoughts become things, so choose them wisely.”

The first time I heard those words from motivational speaker, Mike Dooley, I’ll admit I thought them a little woo-woo. Surely life wasn’t that simple? Surely it was circumstance, luck, other people and even fate itself that shaped our days?

Then along came Dr Joe Dispenza, whose teachings took the idea further and got me thinking a little deeper. Grounded in neuroscience, quantum physics and lived experience, he explained that our thoughts and emotions don’t just reflect reality; they create it.

“Your personality creates your personal reality,” I would hear Dr Joe tell from his numerous books I have come to read and videos I have watched. “And your personality is made up of how you think, act and feel.” That idea both thrilled and intrigued me.

Could my thoughts really be that powerful?

Gregg Braden takes this even further. He explains that it’s not only the thoughts themselves, but the significance we give them that shapes our reality. A passing thought can be harmless, like a cloud drifting by. But when we attach weight to it, giving it oxygen and energy, we feed it and let it settle into us.

And it can become a storm.

My storm and my answer were waiting for me on 96 steps of Mount Buninyong’s lookout tower recently.

If the eagle could trust the current to carry them, could I not trust my own legs, my breath, my mind to carry me just a little higher?

It was only 25 metres high, but to me it was Everest-like. The first flight of stairs I bounded up easily—“Look. Mum, no hands!” The second began to test me, the third had me grasping the well-worn hand railing. By the fourth, my inner coach was cheering: “Steady girl, you’ve got this.”

By the fifth, my breath shortened, my legs began to quiver and my body to scream warnings—perhaps I did not have this after all? “When did you become so afraid?” I asked of myself, searching for an answer as my clenched knuckles began to turn white.

Each thought, “You’re not safe. You cannot do this. You’ll fall,” landed like bricks. My body threatening to collapse like a child’s push-up toy. What had begun as a passing cloud of doubt was now a roaring thunder in my chest. It had become my personal reality.

On the sixth, the swaying treetops below made my stomach churn. Fear wasn’t just in my head any more; it had moved to every inch of my jelly-like body. And then came the moment we all face in life: stay stuck where fear has pinned you or move forward, one trembling step at a time.

I swallowed, my mouth dry. I froze. And then I looked up.

Above me, circling effortlessly on an invisible air current, was a majestic eagle. Their vast wings stretched wide and their body seemingly suspended in time. Steady and utterly at home in the sky. I marvelled at the impossibility of it all. The eagle wasn’t fighting the wind, they were trusting it and flowing gloriously with it.

And in that instant, Braden’s words made so much sense. The steps had not changed, they were still metal and strong. Only the significance I gave my thoughts for mounting them had. I had been feeding my fear.

So, could I choose to feed trust?

If the eagle could trust the current to carry them, could I not trust my own legs, my breath, my mind to carry me just a little higher? Just as they had done as I so easily navigated those first few steps.

“Breathe girl, breathe.”

And so I did.

Though not quite “Look. Mum, no hands,” step by tenacious step, thought by empowering thought, whilst not as graceful as the eagle, my foot lifted. And I. Climbed. It lifted again and I climbed some more. The seventh landing brought me close enough to taste victory, but fear still whispered.

And the eagle still watched.

So higher still I went. Until at last, the summit. That final step. The holy grail.

The view was as magnificent as the brochure promised. In fact, it was more so. 360 panoramic views sweeping across Ballarat and beyond. But the greater view was inward. The realisation that my thoughts had created my struggle—and so too my triumph.

The steps never changed. Only my mind did. Dispenza was right: change your energy and change your life. And Braden was on the money too. It was the meaning I gave those thoughts that shaped whether they held me back or lifted me higher.

How powerful are our minds? I mused—perhaps the eighth wonder of the world.

And then, just as the euphoria bloomed, the wind snatched my beloved cap. Of course it did! In the catch of the century, I lunged and grabbed it. Stuffing it safely under my jumper. All done with one hand whilst the other still clung to the railing for dear life. But I was laughing, because in that moment fear no longer owned me.

Walking heroically back down, I knew I carried more than a view from Mount Buninyong. I carried proof. Proof that our thoughts truly do become things. Proof that trust, when paired with courage, can carry us higher than we think possible. And proof that the limits we believe in are often only illusions.

Dispenza’s and Braden’s teachings came alive for me that day. We are not victims of circumstance, but creators of our reality. When we live from fear, our world shrinks. When we live from trust, our possibility expands.

And nature? Nature already knows this truth. Science once declared the bumblebee’s flight impossible, its body too heavy and its wings too small. And yet, blissfully unaware of these laws, the gentle bumblebee simply flies.

Like the bumblebee and like that eagle above me, I too learned that day, it’s not the rules we’re told that matter most, but the trust we place in what is possible that is.

Sometimes, to rise, we don’t need more strength. We just need more trust.

So, did I really make it to the top? Or is this just a story from my head?

Well, I’d love to show you the photo, but when I finally summoned the courage to pull out my phone, the battery had gone flat!

So I guess you’ll just have to trust me on that one.